The following reflection is from a recent mission trip participant with Mission of Hope: Haiti. If you have any questions getting involved in a mission trip with Mission of Hope, or if you would like to share about your trip experience, please reach out to email@example.com.
You rule the raging of the sea; when its waves rise, you still them. – Psalm 89:9 (ESV)
While in Haiti, my friends and I took a personality test during our family time. The final question was, “What is your favorite part of nature, and why?” My answer was the ocean, because it absolutely terrifies me, but once you get past that fear, it can be exciting and peaceful.
My friend pointed out that my response to that question is the way I see God. I thought that was silly, because God doesn’t terrify me. Then another friend told me, however, that after hearing my testimony, it does seem like I have a tendency to be afraid of God.
The more I thought about it, the more I realized I am quick to be afraid of God. I am quick to doubt his goodness and plan. I’m afraid that if I let go and give it all to him, He will actually take it all away. I’m afraid that the waves will rock my boat and consume me.
Over the days following this conversation, God revealed the same thing is true with Him as it is with the ocean—once I push past my fears and trust Him, He is exciting. He is joy. He is calm. He is peace.
On a bus ride up a mountain near the end of our trip, someone tapped me on the shoulder, and I looked behind me. All I could see was the ocean. Gorgeous. Terrifying. Exciting. Peaceful. God used everything in Haiti to speak to me this week—even the beautiful, scenic ocean.